About Me
- Name: Bino/Geno
- Location: Malabon, Manila, Philippines
The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well that's just fabulous.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
I had some time to reflect today. Actually, I did not really plan it. I was thinking about immunoglobulins and in the midst of that, I had an epiphany.
A former professor of mine said to me one time, "I feel like you are so angry. You have so much anger in you." I was not really a trouble maker in school or what. I was just the usual opinionated student during classes. I shrugged the comment off.
This time, I realized that I do have a lot of anger inside me. I don't know exactly who or what I'm angry at but it just came to me suddenly. I have always felt like the world is unfair and everything in it is in disarray.
Well, it may be true but I found out that I don't have to bear the burden. In the last few months, I have been a different person. I am not bitter anymore. Although I still have some of my issues but at least I have removed a lot of them.
I realized that we don't need to be angry at our parents. No matter how stupid or imbecile they can be sometimes. When we think of the elderly, all we see are how they destroyed this earth and how they managed to wage wars with each other, hurt each other and more, hurt us passively by making this world a really bad world to live in.
But somehow I realized that it is not really their fault. They we are also victims. Victims of a really bad society where they grew up. Victims of the lack of technology during their times. They knew really few things and understood even fewer things unlike the scientific knowledge our generation has right now. No wonder their thinking is narrow. They were confined to a narrow corridor to pass and lived in a society where going out of the mainstream is highly intolerable.
I said to my mom a couple of times during conversations. The generation now is not as stupid as their generation.
I still haven't figured out the other things that made me so angry. Maybe they are just accumulations of the things that happens in our society. About the vast corruption in government, the greediness of businessmen, the naiveness of the church, the sexism and discrimination in society, the world leaders who let their country men suffer, the suffering of the sick because of ineffective health system, etc. The list can go on and on.
I will do my job. I will be courageous. And I will be different. We are born for greatness not mediocrity.
A former professor of mine said to me one time, "I feel like you are so angry. You have so much anger in you." I was not really a trouble maker in school or what. I was just the usual opinionated student during classes. I shrugged the comment off.
This time, I realized that I do have a lot of anger inside me. I don't know exactly who or what I'm angry at but it just came to me suddenly. I have always felt like the world is unfair and everything in it is in disarray.
Well, it may be true but I found out that I don't have to bear the burden. In the last few months, I have been a different person. I am not bitter anymore. Although I still have some of my issues but at least I have removed a lot of them.
I realized that we don't need to be angry at our parents. No matter how stupid or imbecile they can be sometimes. When we think of the elderly, all we see are how they destroyed this earth and how they managed to wage wars with each other, hurt each other and more, hurt us passively by making this world a really bad world to live in.
But somehow I realized that it is not really their fault. They we are also victims. Victims of a really bad society where they grew up. Victims of the lack of technology during their times. They knew really few things and understood even fewer things unlike the scientific knowledge our generation has right now. No wonder their thinking is narrow. They were confined to a narrow corridor to pass and lived in a society where going out of the mainstream is highly intolerable.
I said to my mom a couple of times during conversations. The generation now is not as stupid as their generation.
I still haven't figured out the other things that made me so angry. Maybe they are just accumulations of the things that happens in our society. About the vast corruption in government, the greediness of businessmen, the naiveness of the church, the sexism and discrimination in society, the world leaders who let their country men suffer, the suffering of the sick because of ineffective health system, etc. The list can go on and on.
I will do my job. I will be courageous. And I will be different. We are born for greatness not mediocrity.
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written at : 8:39 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
So I have one question...
If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know that well.
Is it possible, Tong, that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time, I was also wondering.
Is it possible that, we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?
That's my loneliness.
-Mew
If we can love someone so much, how will we be able to handle it the one day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, and you know that well.
Is it possible, Tong, that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them?
At the same time, I was also wondering.
Is it possible that, we can live our entire life without loving anyone at all?
That's my loneliness.
-Mew
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written at : 7:33 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
I am very frustrated with the insolence of the church and the cowardice of the government in implementing a new reproductive health and family planning law. I just angers me that people could be so ignorant about reality.Yes I agree with their stance that corruption is the biggest problem of our country right now BUT eliminating corruption is not the only solution. We should address the problem of overpopulation.
I have said it over and over again that solving the problem of overpopulation will solve a lot of our problems. As you can see now, the education and health system are greatly strained because of the overpopulation plaguing our country.
If we reduce our population, we will have more classrooms for children. They the ratio of books, teacher to students will be better especially in public schools. The decrease in family size will also mean that parents will have an easier time feeding their children. How can the church not see all of these?!?
I am so angry. I just cannot understand why their minds could be so demonic at times. This just goes to show that sometimes, wisdom does not really correlate with age. In fact, I never totally believed in the wisdom of the oldies.
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written at : 5:10 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I recently read this article about a junior high school student named Larry King. The title of the article is 'Young, Gay and Murdered in Junior High'. Larry King was not your typical junior high student. He was gay, flamboyant in cross-dressing and apparently loud (figuratively).
He was often teased at school and bullied. However, it did not stop him from being gay at such a young age. He also teased back at other guys saying, "I know you want me." Apparently, this was causing a lot of stir among teachers and students and arguing whether they should stop him from his freedom of expression or uphold the rights of others because he was distracting them during classes.
One day, a classmate of Larry, Brandon, pulled out a handgun during class, aimed it at Larry's head and shot him twice. Brandon was later put to jail and still on trial until now.
The LGBT community did not waste any moment in pointing out that this is a discrimination against gays and it was a hate crime. They even hailed Larry as a martyr.
I beg to disagree. I believe his death could have been prevented if he was given proper guidance. In fact, the story now really revolved on how to resolve these kinds of issues in school. How do you balance freedom of expression and distraction to other students?
I am not saying that Brandon's act of killing Larry is justifiable. What I mean is that there should be rules to keep us in our borders if people do not know how to keep themselves in it. Especially in Larry's case where he is too young to even know what being gay really means.
Don't get me wrong. I am really open minded especially to my friends but eventhough I am part of this community, I am still strongly against cross dressing. I just see no point in doing that. It's a mental disorder if you are not comfortable with what's between your legs. It's not homosexuality.
Going back to the story, days before the killing, Larry asked Brandon to be his valentine because of a dare by Larry's girl friends but Brandon declined. It seems like Brandon was embarrassed by Larry so much it made him do it.
Sometimes, we are really causing the damage to ourselves. We kept blaming the society but we are really not looking at ourselves and how our actions negatively affect our image. I hope that cases like this won't be taken as it is. Underneath it are very deep social issues that threaten the very foundation of society.
He was often teased at school and bullied. However, it did not stop him from being gay at such a young age. He also teased back at other guys saying, "I know you want me." Apparently, this was causing a lot of stir among teachers and students and arguing whether they should stop him from his freedom of expression or uphold the rights of others because he was distracting them during classes.
One day, a classmate of Larry, Brandon, pulled out a handgun during class, aimed it at Larry's head and shot him twice. Brandon was later put to jail and still on trial until now.
The LGBT community did not waste any moment in pointing out that this is a discrimination against gays and it was a hate crime. They even hailed Larry as a martyr.
I beg to disagree. I believe his death could have been prevented if he was given proper guidance. In fact, the story now really revolved on how to resolve these kinds of issues in school. How do you balance freedom of expression and distraction to other students?
I am not saying that Brandon's act of killing Larry is justifiable. What I mean is that there should be rules to keep us in our borders if people do not know how to keep themselves in it. Especially in Larry's case where he is too young to even know what being gay really means.
Don't get me wrong. I am really open minded especially to my friends but eventhough I am part of this community, I am still strongly against cross dressing. I just see no point in doing that. It's a mental disorder if you are not comfortable with what's between your legs. It's not homosexuality.
Going back to the story, days before the killing, Larry asked Brandon to be his valentine because of a dare by Larry's girl friends but Brandon declined. It seems like Brandon was embarrassed by Larry so much it made him do it.
Sometimes, we are really causing the damage to ourselves. We kept blaming the society but we are really not looking at ourselves and how our actions negatively affect our image. I hope that cases like this won't be taken as it is. Underneath it are very deep social issues that threaten the very foundation of society.
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written at : 9:20 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Hmm... I can't think of anything to write about.
Actually. Two events happened recently that still occupy my mind.
The first one I cannot tell anyone because it is strictly confidential and even if you don't know him, I can't tell it here since we all know how ridiculously small this world is. So far, I haven't been a victim of the same story we heard that, "I know someone, who knows someone, who knows someone, who told me the chismis". Well I wouldn't want to be a victim of that.
It sucks that some people don't know how to shut their mouth and dispenses information like it's free tissue in a public toilet. When will people learn that it's none of their business.
Anyway, enough of that. I am also planning on establishing a publication for the Blue medical school. Weeeeee. I have one friend whose willing to help. We will need all the kindred spirits who are also writers. It's such a shame if the publication fee the students paid for will not be used.
Actually. Two events happened recently that still occupy my mind.
The first one I cannot tell anyone because it is strictly confidential and even if you don't know him, I can't tell it here since we all know how ridiculously small this world is. So far, I haven't been a victim of the same story we heard that, "I know someone, who knows someone, who knows someone, who told me the chismis". Well I wouldn't want to be a victim of that.
It sucks that some people don't know how to shut their mouth and dispenses information like it's free tissue in a public toilet. When will people learn that it's none of their business.
Anyway, enough of that. I am also planning on establishing a publication for the Blue medical school. Weeeeee. I have one friend whose willing to help. We will need all the kindred spirits who are also writers. It's such a shame if the publication fee the students paid for will not be used.
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written at : 10:26 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
There are some things in this world which I don't believe in. Here's some of them:
1. Marriage. I don't believe in this crap and the accompanying piece of paper. Don't get me wrong. I intend to marry someone, someday. I just don't believe in marriages that are only exclusively for heterosexuals. It just breaks the very essence of marriage. Maybe I am politically incorrect in saying I don't believe in marriage. What I am saying is that marriage should be about "tying the knot" or saying that you are ready to spend the rest of your life with this person. It really doesn't matter who, when, why you are marrying this person.
2. Ghosts. I never was a fan of horror movies especially ghost stories. I like telling them to people and hear them scream but I was always laughing with the idea. Dead people are rotting now but I believe that their consciousness has been transfered somewhere else. I guess I believe in reincarnation.
3. Exorcism. I never believed in things like sinapian. I can say one thing, schizophrenia. I always said that there's a thin line between fantasy and real world. If we let it blur like in this case, then psychologists like us would be out of business!
1. Marriage. I don't believe in this crap and the accompanying piece of paper. Don't get me wrong. I intend to marry someone, someday. I just don't believe in marriages that are only exclusively for heterosexuals. It just breaks the very essence of marriage. Maybe I am politically incorrect in saying I don't believe in marriage. What I am saying is that marriage should be about "tying the knot" or saying that you are ready to spend the rest of your life with this person. It really doesn't matter who, when, why you are marrying this person.
2. Ghosts. I never was a fan of horror movies especially ghost stories. I like telling them to people and hear them scream but I was always laughing with the idea. Dead people are rotting now but I believe that their consciousness has been transfered somewhere else. I guess I believe in reincarnation.
3. Exorcism. I never believed in things like sinapian. I can say one thing, schizophrenia. I always said that there's a thin line between fantasy and real world. If we let it blur like in this case, then psychologists like us would be out of business!
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written at : 9:04 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
If you're wondering why I haven't updated this blog since I posted Mario, well, the answer is because I'm afraid it would be buried after some posts. Hehehe. I want it always on top. Anyway, I finally chose to update the blog anyway.
But isn't he cute?!? Wala aangal! Hehe. But mew is cute too. Sabi nila kahawig ko daw. Hihi.
Yes. I am still not over the movie, love of siam. Hehe. I'm not really that busy. I just want to be relaxed and not get too stressed. The first major test is coming soon. Hmmm.... I hope I do well.
But isn't he cute?!? Wala aangal! Hehe. But mew is cute too. Sabi nila kahawig ko daw. Hihi.
Yes. I am still not over the movie, love of siam. Hehe. I'm not really that busy. I just want to be relaxed and not get too stressed. The first major test is coming soon. Hmmm.... I hope I do well.
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written at : 5:33 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
This is such a cute film!!! And the actors are soooo cute. It's definitely a must watch. *Sigh* Love sweet love. But I was terribly bothered by what Tong said at the end. Why did he say that?! Anyway, can't say anything. I might spoil it for you. Hihi. Just watch the movie.
Isn't Mario Maurer cute?! I wish I am Chinese-German. The actors were perfect in the movie. Sheeesss. I wish we could also come up with quality movies worth comparing to Thai, Taiwanese and Korean movies.4 Comment/s
written at : 8:31 AM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
My sister frequently say that I am somewhat like his boyfriend. In some ways, I agree. We're both smart and intelligent. We're well educated and well traveled. We even react the same way to her "stupidities".
However, I realized that there are more things we are different on.
First, he is very conservative and I am really liberal. He is like a republican and I'm a democrat. He doesn't believe in feminism and gay rights. He still believes that males are superior than females. How outdated is that?! He strongly adheres to the idea that females are created to bear children for males and even calls the whole equal rights movement, "ulul".
Second, I have financial sense and he doesn't. Lot's of his plans may be creative and all but they just don't work. He is right on some business though, but certainly not most of them. He does not know how and where to invest.
Third, he is a gadget geek while I am the prehistoric information technology guy. He knows all about computers and gadgets and technology. I know how to use the computer but not really know it inside out.
Fourth, he hates the Philippines while I am a full pledged patriot.
Well, I don't really care. After all, it's my parents to blame if they end up in some kind of a hole. They wanted him for her in the first place.
However, I realized that there are more things we are different on.
First, he is very conservative and I am really liberal. He is like a republican and I'm a democrat. He doesn't believe in feminism and gay rights. He still believes that males are superior than females. How outdated is that?! He strongly adheres to the idea that females are created to bear children for males and even calls the whole equal rights movement, "ulul".
Second, I have financial sense and he doesn't. Lot's of his plans may be creative and all but they just don't work. He is right on some business though, but certainly not most of them. He does not know how and where to invest.
Third, he is a gadget geek while I am the prehistoric information technology guy. He knows all about computers and gadgets and technology. I know how to use the computer but not really know it inside out.
Fourth, he hates the Philippines while I am a full pledged patriot.
Well, I don't really care. After all, it's my parents to blame if they end up in some kind of a hole. They wanted him for her in the first place.
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written at : 8:29 PM
Why are the good commercials banned?!
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written at : 7:33 PM
